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Tennis pros... and cons

Thu, 04 May 2006 18:27:27 GMT

I've just started taking up tennis. I enrolled in Celebrity's Summer Tennis Camp. It's SO fun!

I've got the forehand and backhand. I can volley over the net. My form's improving. That's the good news.

The bad news is that my ENTIRE body aches. Heck, even the small muscles in my hands ache. Plus, I've got a developing blister on my thumb. But it's all worth it.

This is the ONLY sport I've ever been so interested in. Usually, I just like watching some sports and dabbling in others. Now, I can't wait to get really good at this. Hopefully, I can find someone to play with in UPM.

Curious Play

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 17:00:03 GMT

I SO LOVE Fushigi Yuugi. (c'mon... admit it. You watched the whole thing too!) This is the first time in years that I got to watch it again, and I completely forgot the story, so it's like watching it for the first time. I downloaded the summary over the net, and the ending was so nice that I actually cried (well, sort of). And that was just a summary! The second season is about halfway through on Animax, and I can't wait to see the end on TV!

I'm turning into such a sap. I'm a hopeless romantic. Hayy...

I want to experience that kind of selfless love, but I don't think I can feel it again for him (goodness, I think we've all established who HE is). Too much has happened. Words have been said that can't be taken back. Like I said to Ica, I was feeling queasy. I really don't have a clue as to where I stand. Even if there was some semblance of hope for the two of us, I don't know if I would be proud of the relationship. Oh well. I shouldn't be dwelling on this.

Secret Names...

Mon, 24 Apr 2006 12:35:42 GMT

I have an elvish name!!! It's Tarí Silimaurë. Gagamitin ko sa Ragnarok yan! Siguro Archer...

I have a hobbit name too: Lila Brambleburr of Bindbale Wood. Suits me, doesn't it? Pwedeng pang-Merchant.

Wisdom Teeth

Thu, 20 Apr 2006 09:06:18 GMT

I just had both wisdom teeth on the right side of my face removed. It wasn't so bad. I could feel the doc hacking and sawing into the bones of my oral cavity, but the anesthesia was enogh, and the only pain was from my lips and jaws being stretched.

However, once the anesthesia wore off, I could feel the ache starting to spread all over my mouth. But I have good painkillers (Voltaren® Forte is the best!) so all's well.

The doc said my cheek would swell and probably bruise by tomorrow. So I can expect to look like a splotchy, lopsided soccer ball tomorrow. Oh joy.

I hate the taste of blood, but I'm getting used to it. It stopped being disgusting halfway into the procedure. It's just salty now. The real bleeding has stopped, but there's still some seeping. Everytime I wash my mouth out, I can see some traces of gum tissue in my spit. It's horrible. But it'll heal soon. Before it does, though, my mouth will continue to smell like Bio Lab after dissecting live frogs. Who knew frog blood and human blood smelled so similar?

Dae Jang Geum

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 17:43:04 GMT

I finally finished the entire boxed set of “Jewel in the Palace.” All 19 DVDs. I couldn’t wait to get to the end, but now that it’s over, I can’t help but want more. At around the 10^th DVD, I was ready to give up. The plot started to annoy me. But since Mom and I had this “all-for-one-one-for-all” sort of pact, I stuck with it. And the episodes started getting better and better.

At first you’d think that Jang-geum always got the worst end of the deal. She’s the good guy, the one who does no wrong, and everyone’s out to get her simply because she had the misfortune of being born to the wrong people (who died when she was eight). It was so annoying that she never asked for help from her powerful friends. She was defeated, imprisoned, sentenced to death, and forced into exile time and time again. I just SO annoyed me that the good guys always lost.

Then around the 16^th DVD, things started to change. The Cui family, the bane of Jang-geum’s existence, finally got their just deserts. When they were gone, all other conflicts seemed trivial in comparison. The last DVDs were simply awesome. We couldn’t tear ourselves from the TV. Even at 2AM, we would be, like, “Just one more episode…”

But the thing that really stuck with me was the love story of Jang-geum and Captain Min Jio-ho. I was really annoyed with their story too, at first, because it’s like they refuse to do anything about their feelings. Jang-geum in particular refused to sacrifice her mission for the sake of their love. And I just couldn’t believe how torpe the Captain was being.

But when I really started to think about it, I was just so touched by their love. For one thing, they NEVER kissed. Not even once. Not even on the cheek. I suppose it was understood that they did kiss after they got married, but throughout their ENTIRE courtship of more than 20 years, the most intimate thing they ever did was hug. I can understand how Jang-geum could like this, but how could any guy (especially a guy from an extremely patriarchal culture) hold himself back for all of 20 years??? Heck, nagtanan na nga eh, di pa rin ginalaw. I was so hoping that they would really run away together, but they just HAD to go back… At least they eventually got married.

My point is this: their love was so pure. It was amazing. It was unsullied by lust and selfish desire. When you take away all the things that we usually associate with love, like kissing, caressing and all the kilig feelings (phenylethylamine), is there really anything left? Min Jio-ho made me realize that there was. He followed her wherever she was sent or exiled to. He gave up lucrative positions just so he could be with her. He supported her through everything. He was her rock, her comfort. All this for a girl who wouldn’t even kiss him. His love was unselfish. It desired nothing more than her happiness.

I want to be loved that way. I want to love that way. A love that starts in purity and finds fulfillment in itself. A love where there is no me or you, only an us. I have raised my standards, and I hope I never allow myself to settle for anything less.

Isn't he HOT? On-screen... Ooh la la! I'm not really into Koreans, but he's an exception. Medyo minus pogi points nga lang yung course niya: Jewelry design.

Ica dear, eto yung sinasabi ko sayong kahawig ni Sang. He may not look very much like our Lee Sang-hyun, but this actor certainly reminds me of our dear Sang.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 10:01:18 GMT

I'm back!!!

It's been ages, hasn't it? Everything's so busy right now... If I'm not eating or studying (sleep is out of the question), I'm too exhausted to move. I've been running on caffeine for the past few days. Thankfully (read: by God's grace alone!), I got a decent score on this afternoon's bio exam (I'm starting to dislike bio more and more...). I feel like half my brain cells have fallen asleep on me.

Physics is horrible. It was tolerable in high school where you could actually imagine what was happening, but now it's all sines and tangents and angles and differentials (Physics 71 should be titled "The Impractical and Improbable Application of All the Calculus and Trigonometry Processes That You Will Never Use"). I have no idea how to visualize the process, much less imagine how to apply the formulas once the teachers mix everything up in the exam. The first departmental exam was last week. New topic, new start. I'll work extra hard on Newton's laws.

Math 74 isn't much better, but at least I almost passed the first exam (54% when the passing is 60%). I'm going to be tutored again by Ate Deb. Differentials and integrals, here I come!

What is it with Christians and the Theory of Evolution??? I can understand why the Catholic Church could be against it, but we're supposed to be looking beyond doctrine! Is it so hard to believe that our God could be behind that evolution? Time is relative. One day for God isn't necessarily a day for us. Besides, just LOOK at the theory. Sure, it's a bit rough around the edges, but it certainly shows that none of this was random. Really now. Can't you just SEE that God is behind all this? Notice that the theory of evolution has the same chronological order as the first few chapters of Genesis. Even the Big Bang theory supports the story of creation. Look past doctrine. Open your mind. Religion will always conflict with science, but faith never will-- unless you let it.

"True science discovers God hiding behind every corner." -Pope Pius (not bad for a pope)

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Tue, 22 Nov 2005 09:26:08 GMT

Wow... It feels like everything's finally falling into place. School is toxic (as always), but I don't feel as desperate as I used to.

Nagkakaayusan na ang block, and we're starting to be active in our college. Others have taken the lead, and thet're doing well. It's really time for me to step down.

Next sem, no more student council for me. It makes me kinda sad, but I'll be glad to finally give up all the meetings and extra responsibility. I'll get to live for myself for the first time since I entered college. I know it's wrong to live selfishly, but I want to do it just this once. Then I'll have time to be active in church and in all the other things I've always wanted to try.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Tue, 08 Nov 2005 09:43:09 GMT

Only now did I realize how great Berns is. I mean the REAL Berns, not just the android-who-got-an-uno-in-Math17 (anbilibabol, no?). He's actually kinda sweet. A bit like R, but more like Kelson.

Ang lupit talaga ng second year. Thankfully, I was one of the few who got off without a single singko. I actually have blockmates who failed all the subjects they took last sem. And no one blames them.

Malupit lang talaga.

To make things worse, dami na umaalis. Si Reiyk, si Pam (blockhead ng 1st yr.). Aalis na rin sina Kelson at baka din si Beni at si West. they're all going abroad.

Feeling ko maa-attach ako kay Kelson... He's one of the few real guys sa block namin. Really nice.

I won't, I won't... Yoko na magkagusto sa lalaking aalis lang din. (Goodness, I hope none of my blockmates see this...)

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 17:48:14 GMT

Correction: Di ko high school friend si Kathleen. But we still have oodles of fun together. (And I, too, will never call you Japs-- except maybe pag natuliro ako at lahat ng tao sa paligid ay Japs ng Japs)

And Ica dear, we shall spare Mimay's life until serious threat arises.

YOU ARE A PINK SLORG!!!

Gee, thanks.

I love www.neopets.com .

Saturday, October 22, 2005

Sat, 22 Oct 2005 15:43:48 GMT

I had a GREAT time with the 4-C people. Twelve din ang pumunta, say niyo? Good turnout yun!

Belated happy birthday kina Mile, Joc at Cel!!!

We love you!!!

I really seriously have not laughed so hard for so long since Arumi's birthday (nung high school friends din ang kasama ko). There's nothing quite like being with the people you grew up with. That was SO fun!!!

Nakasama pa rin si Allan, chicken pox and all. Yan ang kaibigan!

Raimond brought cakes for all the celebrants. I'm so glad he has finally put away all the 4th year tampuhans. He's back to being good old Rai-Ci.

Pao, thanks for the ride! May sasabayan na ako! Lapit lang ng mga bahay namin.

Shucks, I think I'm still in love with him. No need to elaborate on who "he" is... Isa lang naman ang pinagkaguluhan kong lalaki ever eh. N doesn't count.

I don't know what it is with him. Pati nga si Mile, na-in love eh. hehe

According to Mile, pag mahal mo ang isang tao, di na mawawala yung love na yun. Mahal mo na eh. Aw shucks. Wala na bang katapusan to?